why

write

I have been diligently been writing for over 40 plus years my innermost thoughts

Today I got up surrounded my people and though when fear would engulf me - some eminent expected loss

days before I have understood in detail that can be loss for me - any loss is my gain

I am surrounded by me alone and no body else

I may call them hubris

them and me go away at the same instance and they appear with me at the same instance

I do not exist

I need supports since I do not exist

My supports are my beliefs and they are baseless

as much as I am baseless

soon enough I reminded myself I am absent

I got up from sleep announcing to myself I am

I knew all along I am absent while in sleep

I literally has one and only meaning

absent

where do I do from there

Yudhisthir too asked the same question

when he was absolutely without support

answer to go back to supports

he did go and witnessed first hand his own suffering from his own support

hell

he no longer can't be supported

I diligently wrote about every intimate thought candidly

if any ever is reading this would recognize one's own self discovery

support-less that remotely supports unverse