I coming to know my blindness.
Thousands of years intelligence transferred to me are beliefs and visualization due my intelligence. If my beliefs are my blindness - my intelligence is nothing but stuffing myself in a dungeon. Rewards and glory further creates a race towards the same.
It is extremely difficult to go back to the fresh world of no belief where intelligence is not a bowl of soup one does not bother to taste. To day I know that I don't know is greater intelligence for me to attain.
It is intelligent to survive in whatever form is again many thousand years of activity for human. We have forts cities security systems, religion, many isms.
Occasionally, it comes to my mind my lack of intelligence is the only reason for my survival - truly. It is my act of unselfishness. My thought for rest - a world without me where I am most comfortable and supported by all except me.
Occasionally, I realize I am always wrong as me part of an organization, as a community, as a citizen....as human.
I am totally blind without senses - I must not move must not utter a word - this is the only action permissible to me. Lest I teach or create a wrong belief in any.
Mere recognition of my own blindness is partial removal of my cataract.
I have inherited this blindness from evolution and adopted from persisting knowledge of humankind and its believe system. There is no reason for nature to follow any hypothetical mathematical axiomatic knowledge system. There is no reason for nature though up anomaly. But I have hardly have an alternative since we have to abide by rational system - our neighbors.
Alternative of our mathematics is not conceivable that does not mean that does not exist. How much we may comprehend is doubtful. Alternative mathematics is the nature itself.
However what I am writing about is my personal guilt of living in the society and not conforming to that. I suffer every minute with guilt. That is of lesser evil to me since the alternative Life term in Dungeon.
Now something has dawned on me that I do not know it is provable or not - I had no choice really of doing any other thing than what I did always. In other words I merely carried out whatever I did.
I do not see any one or anything that is ME. Yet I have done non-stop from breathing to cursing to talking to thinking. I am driven to do things and I felt remorse and guilty after all my deeds and persists for years and years never without recess.
If there is me and there is always - I can't stop it not can I navigate it to right acceptable thinking and rational doing.
Perhaps all my doing in the past wrong, it is wrong now and shall be wrong in future always but I helpless.
Thousands of years intelligence transferred to me are beliefs and visualization due my intelligence. If my beliefs are my blindness - my intelligence is nothing but stuffing myself in a dungeon. Rewards and glory further creates a race towards the same.
It is extremely difficult to go back to the fresh world of no belief where intelligence is not a bowl of soup one does not bother to taste. To day I know that I don't know is greater intelligence for me to attain.
It is intelligent to survive in whatever form is again many thousand years of activity for human. We have forts cities security systems, religion, many isms.
Occasionally, it comes to my mind my lack of intelligence is the only reason for my survival - truly. It is my act of unselfishness. My thought for rest - a world without me where I am most comfortable and supported by all except me.
Occasionally, I realize I am always wrong as me part of an organization, as a community, as a citizen....as human.
I am totally blind without senses - I must not move must not utter a word - this is the only action permissible to me. Lest I teach or create a wrong belief in any.
Mere recognition of my own blindness is partial removal of my cataract.
I have inherited this blindness from evolution and adopted from persisting knowledge of humankind and its believe system. There is no reason for nature to follow any hypothetical mathematical axiomatic knowledge system. There is no reason for nature though up anomaly. But I have hardly have an alternative since we have to abide by rational system - our neighbors.
Alternative of our mathematics is not conceivable that does not mean that does not exist. How much we may comprehend is doubtful. Alternative mathematics is the nature itself.
However what I am writing about is my personal guilt of living in the society and not conforming to that. I suffer every minute with guilt. That is of lesser evil to me since the alternative Life term in Dungeon.
Now something has dawned on me that I do not know it is provable or not - I had no choice really of doing any other thing than what I did always. In other words I merely carried out whatever I did.
I do not see any one or anything that is ME. Yet I have done non-stop from breathing to cursing to talking to thinking. I am driven to do things and I felt remorse and guilty after all my deeds and persists for years and years never without recess.
If there is me and there is always - I can't stop it not can I navigate it to right acceptable thinking and rational doing.
Perhaps all my doing in the past wrong, it is wrong now and shall be wrong in future always but I helpless.
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