I was filled with remorse guilt and suffering - all my doing and deed.
After 50 years of trying I do not wish to subdue my feelings with doings since they are strong like my bones that would remain after my death.
They shall escape after I am burnt.
For ever I shall remain wrong, it is impossible for me to right.
For ever I shall be suffering for guilt and it shall pile up till I am blind insensitive completely without joy.
Forever I am in hell.
I must adjust to hell as my permanent abode and not talk of my high pedigree, now this suffering and future far worse as they arrive every moment.
Why so much expenditure for keeping me in hell continually improving its torture menu so that I lose my mental equilibrium?
I am like cobra born with poison teeth to strike to kill. I can be never right. I must be killed at sight burn to go hell and kept there to be return again to do greater wrong. I can vere be right.
After 50 years of trying I do not wish to subdue my feelings with doings since they are strong like my bones that would remain after my death.
They shall escape after I am burnt.
For ever I shall remain wrong, it is impossible for me to right.
For ever I shall be suffering for guilt and it shall pile up till I am blind insensitive completely without joy.
Forever I am in hell.
I must adjust to hell as my permanent abode and not talk of my high pedigree, now this suffering and future far worse as they arrive every moment.
Why so much expenditure for keeping me in hell continually improving its torture menu so that I lose my mental equilibrium?
I am like cobra born with poison teeth to strike to kill. I can be never right. I must be killed at sight burn to go hell and kept there to be return again to do greater wrong. I can vere be right.
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