absent

i m dead before i expect
i m dead before i remember
i am dead before I act to survive
i am dead before i try to survive
I am dead before I defend
I am dead before I regret
I m dead before I fear
I m dead before I grieve
I m dead before I feel ashamed
I m dead before I feel guilty
I am dead before I ask
I am dead before I blink
I am dead before I think
I am dead before I do
I am dead before I don't enjoy

i am absent
i am dead
i do nothing

I can't make me live in this world even for a moment.