সে

অন্তরাল

সব প্রকাশিত

সব অপ্রকাশিত
প্রথম অদ্বিতীয় অনন্ত

যা পাই তাই প্রসাদ

যে খানে  আছি সেই প্রাসাদ
যা দেখি অভূতপূর্ব
জানিনা বুঝিনা

আমার  দরকার আছে 
সেটা আমার দরকারের শেষ 

আমি আমার সব কিছু
জীবন জগত জানা দায়িত্য সম্পদ  স্মৃতি বুদ্ধি দেহ মন আশা
অতীত ভবিষ্যত বর্তমান
করা বলা ভাবনা
প্রতিজ্ঞা
নিজের জন্য কিছু না রেখে
আমার সব প্রকাশ আমি সমেত
সম্পূর্ণ ভাবে অর্পণ করলাম

অন্তরাল

আমি
কিছু 
কেও 

সে শুধু শুধু সে

অন্তরাল

সব দর্শন ঘটনা চেতনা ভাবনা কর্ম সৃষ্টি
সব লাভ ক্ষতি খোজ অভাব আশা নিরাশা
সব ব্যর্থতা সফলতা অক্ষমতা
সব অতীত বর্তমান ভবিষ্যত
সব জগত ইতিহাস সম্ভাবনা
সব আমি তুমি তিনি
সব জীবন যন্ত্র বস্তু
সব বায়ু জল শক্তি বুদ্ধি স্মৃতি সত্যি মিথ্যা মায়া

সবার অন্তরালে
সবার একমাত্র কারণ
খুঁজে পাওয়া অসম্ভব
সব ঘটনাই বহিঃ প্রকাশ
তার আর কোনো প্রকাশ নেই
কোনো ঘটনা কম বেশি বা বদলানো অসম্ভব

অতীতের আগে ভবিষ্যতের পরে এখনের পিছনে
নেই নেই নেই
আছে সুরু আছে শেষ
না আছে তার আগে না আছে তার পরে
না কায়া মায়া বুদ্ধি স্মৃতি আশা ভাবনা আলো আধার দৃষ্টি শব্দ না বোধ না না না

আবার আবার আবার
সাজায় নতুন সাজে
নতুন অলংকারে সময়ে অমিলে সত্যিতে মিথ্যাতে সংসারে মায়াতে

অন্তরাল ই  একমাত্র বাস
নিশব্দ চির স্থির
অন্তরাল তার অন্তরালে কেও নেই কিছু নেই

অন্তরাল

সব প্রকাশিত

সব অপ্রকাশিত
প্রথম অদ্বিতীয় অনন্ত

যা পাই তাই প্রসাদ

যে খানে  আছি সেই প্রাসাদ
যা দেখি অভূতপূর্ব
জানিনা বুঝিনা

আর কিছু নয় আমার একমাত্র দরকার 
আমার শেষ
আমি 

আমি আমার সব কিছু
জীবন জগত জানা দায়িত্য সম্পদ  স্মৃতি বুদ্ধি দেহ মন আশা
অতীত ভবিষ্যত বর্তমান
করা বলা ভাবনা
প্রতিজ্ঞা
নিজের জন্য কিছু না রেখে আমার সব প্রকাশ
আমি সমেত
সম্পূর্ণ ভাবে অর্পণ করলাম
অপ্রাকাশিতকে
অন্তর্যামী সাক্ষী

অন্তরাল

home

am I at home with all undesirables so that I don't expect - good or bad time?

So that I don't have to write, think or say?

So that I don't have to prepare for my dooms day?

So that I don't engage in any preventive exercise today?

So that with my eyes open I finally see me without any protection or cover on my senses?

So that I see all loss with all eyes open my limbs unmoved lips tight senses all open and no muscle on alert.....I most curious not to miss a single moment of my dying enjoyment sensation feelings and grief....I am most sensitive living organism created to capture every moment of death (life) without prevention or protection as is.

I do this for me alone and not for good or bad for anybody.

hide

home is place to hide from all intimidating.

I like to hide be hind my thought keeping the same untouched by me any further
I like to hide be hind my doing keeping the same untouched by me any further
I like to hide be hind my perception keeping the same untouched by me any further

i have a drop screen behind the universe including nothing and akasha
it is invisible behind which i hide
it is art of hiding behind a speck of dust or nothing or Akasha
none can see me moving or is aware of my existence

I am behind now
I hide behind silence
I hide behind inactivity
I hide behind sleep
I hide behind dream
I hide behind thought
I hide behind sub-atomic particle
I hide behind wave
I hide behind my incapacity
I hide behind my uselessness
I hide behind my dishonesty
I hide behind my shame
I hide behind my fear
I hide behind old age
I hide behind pain
I hide behind my failure
I hide behind my life breath
I hide behind my incompetence
I hide behind my intellect
I hide behind my heart
I hide behind my body
I hide behind grief
I hide behind where I am most sensitive
I hide behind my memory
I hide behind all bad
I hide behind all unseen unheard unprecedented unimaginable
I hide cant expose see or assume
I hide behind boredom
I hide behind my anger
I hide behind my illness
I hide behind my deprivation
I hide behind my tiredness
I hide behind my exasperation
I am behind my fear.
I hide behind all events
I hide behind all abuse maltreatment deficiency and incapacity.

I am behind all!

I hide behind all thoughts perceptions and deeds.

I am hidden. I can't ever reveal me even if I try.

I am unreachable.

সবের পিছনে লুকোনো অপ্রকাশিত আমি খুঁজে পাওয়া অসম্ভব আমি শুধু জানি আমি কোথায় 

stop

i can't stop nothing from happening

joke
serious
my total elimination sooner or later

my ability to create future for me or any totally has disappeared

I am abandoned son of god

when would i stop trying to be normal and assume strength of god

creator

[creator there is.
count as i may to my ability
all is creator
expect as i may to my ability
motivate as i may to my ability
i am creator
after all
before all]

I am creator of supreme heaven for my eternal living in supreme and absolute joy that does not require any maintenance boundary defense or doing on my part; home is eternal and recycles every yester moment to fresh new absolute pure joy that was never before with future of eternal unthinkable unpredictable absolute pure joy moments happening without end

[I wish English language not so limited in vocabulary and expression and i could describe my home without a dot]

required

I am not required to see
I am not required to say
I am not required to do
I am not required to think

I am well taken care of by my creator before I see say think or do and I can do nothing better nor can I change.

Creator is the creator of the world, nothing is expected of me

I am hidden inside a hide nothing of me permeates through the hide

creator lives within me it has seen all and seeing all

AM

I am all .... I am none
I am present...I am absent...I am none
I am human...I am not human....I am none
I am male...I am Female..... I am none
I am living...I am non-living.... I am none
I am isolated....I am part of the world....I am absent
I am able...I am disable...I am none
I am bad...I am good....I am none
I am friend...I am enemy...I am none
I am dangerous...I am not dangerous...I am none
I am boss...I am sub-ordinate...I am none
I am known...I am unknown...I am none
I am silent...I am vocal...I am none
I am different...I am same...I am none

reality

চন্দ্র বিন্দু

I am out of world
untouchable
unreachable distance to change the course of the world or influence a dust of the world

if my path is in the world i can't depart from it no matter how much i may desire

no matter how much blow i can create mist around me not the world

every particle or entity if that exist in the world remain untouchable because of want of vocabulary i may say world is truly illusion that too mine alone and i no way to know its universality

i get thrilled whenever i think of my path (an illusion again of mine alone) it can't be without world - some one not me is creating the both for me alone

and if thee is by chance an world surrounding me - i m its center

all because of not me but the absent that created both

it is like universal studio ride into Jurassic park wearing 3 D glass surrounded by fictional creatures from pre-history.

illusion of time that never exist

my power creating illusion

here no word is spoken by any one or thought by anyone

here no one exist either

i create reality from words .... bat mat cat....mathematics drawings video cinema books

reality can't exist without me

i create reality out of nothing

now

now

unspeakable
untouchable
sparkling
stainless
not modifiable
perfect
timeless

cause of world

hopeless
unspeakable
untouchable
sparkling
stainless

impossible to change

absent

i m dead before i expect
i m dead before i remember
i am dead before I act to survive
i am dead before i try to survive
I am dead before I defend
I am dead before I regret
I m dead before I fear
I m dead before I grieve
I m dead before I feel ashamed
I m dead before I feel guilty
I am dead before I ask
I am dead before I blink
I am dead before I think
I am dead before I do
I am dead before I don't enjoy

i am absent
i am dead
i do nothing

I can't make me live in this world even for a moment.

responsible

there is no other entity besides me

i m one hundred percent responsible for

what I think

what i say

what i do

what i write

what i see

all is my mistake

even when i m let out

without reward or punishment

it shall be so for the eternity to come

it was so for all my past

it is so now

i can't escape

impossible

sometimes theory is needed

in order save many years or lives of mine in order to achieve somethings that is impossible to achieve ever as long as solar system exist or universe exists

we inherit certain property universe and there is no option to that

it is impossible to defend me

it is impossible to defend no me

me do not exist in this universe

while universe exists in me

me is not my concept

while i m hypothesis

while any is again my hypothesis as much as me is

while me as stratum is not hypothesis has to exist for universe in any form to exist even for a moment

so much so a moment can't exist without me

me is not part and indefensible

me is not eliminate-able or terminable

lives after life i may struggle to survive

while this struggle is futile exercise

i can't die i have no beginning and no end

while universe lives many times at my pleasure and causing my displeasure

i challenge my displeasure to eliminate me

immortal

immortal that was never born

there is no question of defending me

i can't be defended

i m indefensible

it is waste

ever since it was created

fun is watching its disappearance

or its continued existence

in the platter of immortal

mistake

Mistakenly i thought god is bounded

i further sophisticated my search for god as search for truth

i thought god needs support

however it is quite opposite god supports truth

truth can not exist without god's support

god even support false

at its whims truth breaks down

while god is everywhere

i m limited and confined to a point and immovable at the center of my world

i m suffocated and day light wiped out world

there is no option but leave me in dungeon to die and never return

never inquire about me

I live in open unbounded in-exhausting divine world of perfects

without me

abandon

I have abandoned my world

all is on their own

there is no place for me

there is none to listen to me

there is none remembers me

there is no evidence that I once lived in this world

there is no entry

i am abandoned outside

none is mine

nothing is mine

what can i expect

harmony

my world has a past that is any body's guess so much so it can be traced back to its present moment

i can appreciate its past and I can appreciate its future

i have option not to appreciate the present

timeless

i have option to improve upon now

creating new symphony of visual spectacle with my limited ability

over and above

that is pure delight without description of my senses

spontaneous eruption of

never before

harmony

without me

welcome

all is welcome in now as their home and they do not have to put up with me.

leash

i m leashed to a post

i can go any distance from the post

but it keeps me under total control

shows me what i m

what is my capacity

both are nothing

i have no option

but be silent

then says with a smile

do whatever you please

you can't do wrong