action

I am nothing and all is nothing just now
I am absent and all is absent just now
I am empty in empty space just now
I am garbage and all is garbage

even if, I or all are not so to me

Just now I act and pretend as if 
- I am nothing and all is nothing to me
- I am absent and all is absent
- I am empty in empty space
- I am garbage and all is garbage to me
I intend to carry this bluff all my life even if I fail to keep this promise to myself